1:29 am
Thursday, May 12, 2011
i'm freakin' pissed.
i dun deserve to be treated this way.
i dun deserve any of this.
ok maybe i do ought to suffer the consequences
but not in this way.
least from her.
i need to change my hairdresser.
coming at me today with her barrage of questions on whether or not he had contacted me when he returned which i had completely no knowledge of
and despite my stressing that we hadn't spoken in a long time
she carried on and asked me why i hadn't contacted him instead.
wad kinda question is that?!!
contact a guy who broke my heart
got together with a new girl within months
come home and cry before me
toyed with my heart and deceived me
left with a barely an apology
return without telling me
which he has no obligation to anyway
and yet in spite of all that,
i still chose to forgave him.
we all deserve second chances in life after all..
but to blame me for not contacting him this time..
then turn on me for being a politically ignorant youth who's unappreciative of PAP in spite of my insistence that i'm not against PAP, just not for Sitoh in comparison with the Chiams..
and cut my hair an extra inch shorter before telling me that even if it's too short already cut so can't be help..
like wadddd?!!
she's the last i would have expected this from.
but i guess..
no matter what,
it remains that she's his hairdresser.
she couldn't have known anyway since i didn't say anything.
she couldn't have known the depth of hurt he caused me.
in her eyes, he's still a "young boy".
if only she knew..
if only.
i'm so glad i'm off to thailand.
may i fall in love there!
clock's tickin and meeting the different groups of people that mean so much to me..
taking part in yet another but most probably my last race ever..
feeling the pain that has come to last longer in my aged body..
i have spent the last few post-exam days with ppl who love me and whom i love alot
God's good =)
i'm truly ready now.. =)