12:27 am
Thursday, December 02, 2010
so this is it i guess.
wish i may
wish i might
buying the materials today
all the hearts and stuff
u can't help but think abt it
why am i doing this again
the last time was for his twenty-first
that was epic for me
and never again did i think i would find the strength to do something similar again
or for a different person
fast forward to 1st dec midnight
and here i am with the semi-pricey prints album before me
it's better now
it's prints
no longer pretty scrapbook paper sourced from different shops
just straightforward gf/bf gift shop - prints.
not too much thought
and yet i can't do something without my heart in it
not something that demands my pathetic bit of creativity
still
i've got the photos
i've double sided taped all of them
i've got the album
the coloured pens
and all the heart stuff i thought i would never use again for a while
and i've got to do them by friday
oh Lord..
give me the creativity
i hope he truly likes it..
raahhs.
talkin to my sis today..
i just feel more uncertain.
who's there to encourage me?
no one's on my side now.
no one feels the same as me.
no one truly understands..
i just need.. some support..
it seems so much easier to screw everything and go along with everyone than
fight my own way through.
andiamsotired
iamthisclosetocavingin