dear God,

my heart is overwhelmed with pain.
i try not to think about it.
i try so so so hard.
but i guess i need to update my supply of baby blues comics so i can keep occupied for now.
my workload's piling up.
i've so much research to do.
and yet.. i can't. i just can't.
coz i can't compartmentalise my emotions and feelings.
i can't.

this morn i woke.
thoughts flodded my mind.
the silence enveloped me.
and i began crying again.
my eyes are puffy and i look like a wreck, but i can't.
i can't.
i can't stop crying.

dear God,
you said your grace is sufficient for me.
could you please make the tears stop?
please take away the pain.
it's so unbearable for my heart.

i've never loved this much.
i've never loved this deep.
i've never loved this so true.
till now.


will i be able to love again?


dear God..
dear God.

help me.