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11:15 pm
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
drainedso much so that i'm struggling to open my already red eyes as my fingers trudge over the keyboard.at the end of the day, i ask myself-why do i have so much to talk abt my work and why dun my friends seem to have similar stuff to talk abt their work?in a way i thank God i didn't get a mundane office job.but maybe i shld heed the advice of my p who told me not to be too hard on myself.maybe it's coz at the end of the day, i really wished these kids have learnt from my lessons.but it's real disheartening when i recap lessons only to find out that half the class are still clueless.it's real disheartening.reading ecclesiastes would add on to the seeming futility.yet each day i press on coz i know this is a career i wanna pursue in the future.my p told me that being a teacher is like a person standing in the middle of a parade square with bricks being hurled at her/him.u won't get praises,only condemnation and every other bad things.not from the kids but their..well.still, i rmb the cny and bday cards i got from some of the kids in my class.adorable's the word.it's remembering the good stuff tt keeps me going.and the hope that their lives may be changed for the better and that i had a miny part in it that drives me.no matter how dismal and small.still..it just gets u down to the pits sometimes.sean popped by my cubicle today and asked if i was ok coz he noticed that i was looking stressed recently.oh dear.is it that evident?i thought i had it under control.and zaki cheers me up with his chocs and magic tricks.my birthday hasn't exactly been a smashing one..still,i'm grateful that i get to celebrate it.so.. =)but i miss my eighteenth.let's see..in the last 5 days including today i got:baptised.ate at the hongkong cafe for the first time.went to chin lee again for the umpteenth time.co-directed the yc good fri event which went off smoothly thank God despite some glitches and so many last min prep.much thanks also goes to the kind soul who brought my hp to church too=)went for a gig on sat nite at esplanade [how many times have i said i love this arts haven] to catch jack&rai [pronounced raY] doing an acoustic set as well as shirlyn and the uneXpected which was absolutely awesome!it was like timbre with a better rowdier crowd,zero alcohol just good ole water and uncomfy seats that left my butt feeling like a pin cushion after i sat for near 3 hours.haha.now i'm hooked on starlight.then i went for huajia's baptism which is completely diff from my church on sunday morning. it's the first time i'm attending another person's baptism outside of my church actually.haha.CONGRATS MAAAAAAAH!then i was deprived of 3 hours of precious sleep but enjoyed $2.56 of good company from jlow while waiting for my birthday surprise to turn up at my gate.haha.james and brenda arrived with NINETEEN muffins and an oreo cheesecake which jlow and james had literally stayed up all night to bake.they camped over at jlow's place.THANKS LOVESSSSSSS!!! *hugs*had dinner with my family at Brazil Churrasaria [i'm not too sure abt the spellling] at sixth avenue which was simply yummilicious!omg.it was absolutely satisfying.haha.mon was dreaded coz i had to meet with the parent who wanted to bring me up to the principal but all turned out ok.Thank God!went out with my babes in the nite whereby the person who really made my night has got to be AJ the gay waiter who's so adorable.he shaped the cotton candy into a heart and stuck a yellow candle into it.cute.and to top it off,i caught a movie today.that has got to be WOW.when was the last time i watched one..and at tampines mall too!haha.thoughtful films of late.makes u question life huh?life ain't simple.which makes u marvel more at how God has so personally crafted ur life to fit u perfectly,though we may have had horrid setbacks,the key is to just keep moving forward so we can fulfill the beautiful purpose God has crafted for each of us beautifully even if we may not see it now.we can't be myopic.i'm tired.pick me up please.Far awayThe ship is taking me far awayFar away from the memoriesOf the people who care if I live or dieStarlightI will be chasing the starlightUntil the end of my lifeI don't know if it's worth it anymoreHold you in my armsI just wanted to holdYou in my armsMy lifeYou electrify my lifeLet's conspire to igniteAll the souls that would die just to feel aliveBut I'll never let you goIf you promised not to fade awayNever fade awayOur hopes and expectationsBlack holes and revelationsOur hopes and expectationsBlack holes and revelationsHold you in my armsI just wanted to holdYou in my armsFar awayThe ship is taking me far awayFar away from the memoriesOf the people who care if I live or dieAnd I'll never let you goIf you promise not to fade awayNever fade awayOur hopes and expectationsBlack holes and revelationsOur hopes and expectationsBlack holes and revelationsHold you in my armsI just wanted to holdYou in my armsI just wanted to hold