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2:12 am
Friday, December 15, 2006
rite now i'm kinda in a dilema. the prob with me is..i really think too much. u know how they say tt when one door closes another door opens? but sometimes,one door slams on ur fingers,and so u're afraid to touch another door again even if it's already open. yet when u finally pluck up the courage to approach it,the door slams shut on u once more. but this time,ur fingers ain't clipped coz u've learnt to not touch the door too fast. still.. it hurts.
life is so full of doors.
but my heart is numbed now. i'm still high from camp. the Lord is truly eternal and it is only in Him shld i rest upon. some things are just not meant to be. i came back from this camp firmly rooted in my belief, yet how can i have a divided heart and not do as i preach? this cannot be so.
when brother bala came to pray a prayer of blessing for me, he held my hands and told me that the image he was getting was of a young lady kneeling on the beach by the sea, in a posture of waiting. the lady may and may not be me, but nonetheless, it really struck me. coz he said too that God is telling him to assure me tt He is listening to me and will answer me in time. all i have to do is simply, wait.
and so i shall. if it's meant to be, it will come to pass.
if it's not, painful as it is now, it'll be shortlived.
in Him i rest and wait.
my heart bleeds. but i'll only be a temporal anaemic.