my hands are feeling extremely clamy as i type this now.
me feet too.
i really wished i could just leap into the pages of the novels i read.the world,albeit entirely different and contrasting to mine,just seem so interesting even if they are full of questions about life and mystery and murder and royalty and all those human emotions.
it's just extreme.
was totally buried in the depths of The Star Of Kazan [me current read] when my sister burst into the room and exclaimed that the room was uber hot.WELL..this is SINGAPORE..land of perpetual heat even when it's raining.
funny how i still felt chilled to the bones while she was just on the verge of swtiching on the air con.and THEN we discovered WHY - she's currently reading Neil Humphreys' book on Singapore while i'm reading about the Alps where the snow never melts.HAHAHA.
strange how books can have such a hold on u tt it even infulences ur temperature eh?ahaha.
anyway,she has yet to switch on the air con coz i think i made her feel a lil tinge of guilt when i spoke abt global warming.
environmentalist at heart. *taps chest*

today was kinda a wasted day for me..set out in the early afternoon for bras besah to check out the 2nd hand geog textbooks i had hoped to find.sadly,the only ones available in the shops by the truckloads were all for O levels..that seems so long ago..oh wells.seems like either no one needs any help for advance geography hence little supply or the demand for it is so overwhelming that the only books the shop could spit out were super brand new and expensive or just on human geog alone which i have no need for.anyway,i did not want to combat the musty smell or minute dust particales any longer so i headed for the ever lively bugis street.
omg.it has totally evolved!
i felt quite lost..totally overwhelmed by the throngs of people that swarmed around me.and my mind was just going places.suddenly it just filled up with all the stuff before my eyes and the thing i had intended to get which was something as simple as a black hairclip but i couldn't find even after spending an hour and a half getting lost in the maze and ended up heading to far east to get it.
i just hate to window shop when i'm broke but not really broke.like i had $30 bucks in my gorgeous yellow purse but it was meant for the tb so obviously i couldn't touch it.totally irksome since i saw this 2 shirts that are around $15 which i would love to have in my cupboard.arrrrghs.as if that weren't bad enough,i saw this nice salmon pink sort of day tripper kinda bag that i took a liking too but it's $30!!arrrghs.ok it's actually quite reasonable for the size and all,but sighhhh.why do i need another bag again?already my bag rack is collapsing.shucks la.
and then there's the present i need to get for my dearest buddy and also my sister.
and the mug i intend to make for mrs wee. [ikea beckons me..]
this is so terrible.
i'll only be able to save max $40 in the next 2 weeks unless i starve myself to death in which i would then be able to save $54.
sighhh..my purse is gonna be crimson soon.

went joggin again.i really am tempted to go into the old cedar stadium though the wild grass in the way do look suspiciously treachrous..i recall the days back in cedar pri when the teacher warned us against going there coz snakes were often seen among the grass and that was where the stray dogs roamed freely too.of coz the boys always ignored the warnings since it was grasshopper haven to them.ohhhh the grasshopper fights they used to have!seems just like yesterday..
anyway,we thankfully did not go to macritchie today.instead we went the joo seng route that i so dreaded last time when tay used to announce it in that death sentencing tone.but it's such a breeze now.i feel like i'm conquering my past mindsets one by one.really.potong pasir..serangoon..now joo seng.but today was no kick.he went jogging with his dad before that but the father couldn't take it anymore after one round so he met me.but he could barely last up to spca la!so we walked the rest of the way.i really feel like going back and running at full speed,see how long i can take.i really can't wait to be a coach in cedar,how i would love to bring the gals through that route!muahahahaha.
i wonder which route we'll next take though..hmmm.

i feel like life is coming one full cycle for me.
i've never engaged in all the activities i used to do as a child..namely playing games like bball,table tennis,tennis,etc. ever since i joined track for fear of injuring which tay had seemed to brainwash into me.i'm uber obedient u see,i totally adhere to his each and every word.except..things have changed now.jc has totally brought life back into me and i'm doing the things i once did,playing games,reading..dreaming.
i went past the giant monsoon drains my pri sch friends and i used to play in today and really felt like plunging in for a moment.of coz james was pretty shocked tt i used to do tt.haha.and then i just thought back about pri sch and sec school and all that stuff..and i feel that i'm re-living my childhood.doesn't help too that everyone keeps perceiving me to be a child which is absolutely irksome coz I'M 18 AND I'M LEGALLY AN ADULT even if i am rather vertically challenged.STILL..


and i get very freaked out when i find out that some ppl look up to me in an adoring way..
wad do they see in me???omg.




i wanna go to the alps.