and so just like that..
track is over for me.
just like that.

it's like..everything just started out so slowly initially..then as nationals hurtled nearer,everything suddenly seemed to be on fast forward mode.nationals..then it seemed to be on freeze frame moment when sasi fell,then daryl then mathew..then it all rushed up again and finals came and went and so did our celebration and the sleepover.everything just seems to have ended in a day.
6 years in 24 hours.

but ahhh...it was such sweet victory.=)

firstly,i must give thanks to God.
He has been sovereign at all times and i pray that the next year's team and leaders will never fail to always turn back to Him.as i reflect,i thank God for putting such a Godly coach like melvin tan across my path,coz in every and any situation,he never failed to turn me back to God.some people can simply shrug it off easily as things that would have naturally occurred anyway..but if you had been there and then at that point of time,as a leader,it can seem like the world was about to come crashing down.
i recall the appeal process..that was exceptionally trying.and whenever i ran to mtan and went 'how????' he would merely say 'come let's go out [of the pe dept]...let's pray' and i would go like *_*?!!!! waaaaaaaaad?!!!here i am pullin me hair out and there you are going 'let's pray???' but it worked.it always worked..through the appeals..through sph..through post-nat jnrs..thru june..thru nats.he never failed to turn me back to God,and God never failed to show me how all powerful He was,is and always will be.
Thank you Lord for blessing me so,for blessin us as a whole.
Thank you Lord for being so unfailing.
i have been much worse than gideon.arrrrghs.

this year's nationals have been so...memorable for me.i dun recall being down on so many days before..and each day was exceptionally eventful for the wrong and right reasons.this year has def been such a smashin year for me,i totally totally loveeeeeee this team to the max!in a way,it's like i kinda helped form this team..it's like my dream team.not just in terms of talents but people too.it's my first and last time ever that i'm in a team whereby i can crap with people from the field side and the guys too.it's like..always a gathering for me to enjoy myself,basking in their company..=) really,i love this team loads. *smiles*
and so it was definitely a suicidal crest fallen disappointment to not be able to contribute any individual points to this wonderful team of mine which i had really wanted to,not just for myself but for the team.
to jlow:you did fabulously!i'm really sorry for the amount of pressure i piled on you.i really believed in you,and up till now my belief in you since sec2 has never wavered.i'll always be your no1 fan ok?!!i just pray that you'll not be forever bogged down by the unexpected end..coz jlow,you'll forever be the best to me.and look at it this way, -we stand alone, together - , and we've done all we can for this team together.thanks jlow!love ya!=D
in the end,it all boiled down to the relays.it always did for me.i still ask God 'WHY?!!!' why didn't He let me qualify for the finals for 100m..but then i realise that maybe if i had,i def wouldn't be in top form to run the relays so soon after that.my endurance is just to the pits of the earth you see.and relays was absolutely crucial to us too.when i saw how sad jlow was,but yet i know she was putting up the same front she tried to put on in sec4,i just felt absolutely helpless.i wanted her to let it all out,but then i was afraid that if she did,she might not have the energy and angst left to run the relay.and i knew how she was really really tryin to put on that brave front.so i did wad little i could..ermx..i kinda tried to get wad she had desired to happen..unfortunately the main star was too shy and did the max he could which wasn't even counted la!but wells..at least he tried after much time in anguish and tryin to get over the barrier.
anyway,when it was time for relays,i was like..filled up to the max with this desire to 'ROARRRRRRRRRR' and be FIERCE.i REALLY WANTED this and i knew how close ac was to us,i def ain't gonna let them pass me.i was assured anyway that i was gonna whack all out.so i went out there with the heart of a lion,i didn't want jlow to do too much work,so i told myself die die also i'm gonna whack.when the gun went after the false start,i was so anxious,i didn't dare to turn around to see huajia,but when i finally did,my heart leaped to see her almost catching up with the nj gal and i was like 'WOOOOOOOTS!!!' so i waited for mel and when i got the baton,i actually expected to be next to changxi,but she was far to fast and ahead,so my next best was joanna and i was like 'cannot cannot let ac be infront!!!' so i whacked and soon she was outta the corner of my eye.but i still feel a bit sad that i could have gone prob a little faster,than i could have given jlow a better lead and then maybe we could have come in 2nd.still..51.63 s was the best ever time we ran and we got a medal!!!woooooooohoooooooooo!!!this was my dream relay team.

love ya huajia,mel,jlow!!!!

then jlow and i went to calculate the point diff btw ac and us and we realised it all boiled down to the 4x4 relay.we were gonna leave already then we suddenly rmb 'NJC!!!' so we quickly turned around and counted theirs,and it like far surpassed ours,we were so sian to be relegated to 3rd that we stopped counting.and i was just prayin that we would still be able to edge out ac or something.i mean,i dun have anything against ac,i love ac.but it just..sucks loads that to come from that school in the first 3 mths to a supposedly superior tracker school after that only to lose to ac and be relegated to 6th place last year and it hurt even more because i couldn't do anything about it..i just didn't want to leave on the same note this year.mtan's dream was for us to get top2,for me,i just didn't want to lose to ac.but at that point,i had already given up hope of beating ac,i just prayed that we would at least tie with them.
so when we went up after that and everyone was just going how we were raned 2nd,i was just laughin bitterly to myself coz for a moment it was like after my 100m race when everyone was congratulating me coz they tot i got in but they were ignorant of the 'truth'.it was similar then.imagine my complete surprise when at the prize giving,they announced
'A division gals,in 4th place-National junior College"
OMGGGGGGG!!!jlow and i were uber stunned la.and my heart just leaped,i was thinkin 'can it be?can it really be???a possible 2nd??????' then '3rd-ANGLO-CHINESE JUNIOR COLLEGE' omggggggggg i was prac praying and everyone was screamin sort of already and finally
'1st runner up- VICTORIA JUNIOR COLLEGE!!!!'
omgggggggggggg.it was a sensation like never before.i couldn't believe it.i really couldn't.
and then i couldn't stop praising God.
jlow didn't wanna go up with me,but hey babe,i wasn't alone in this yeah?we all did it together!

for the track babes '06!!!
*mega smile*

and of coz,the guys got 3rd,rather unjustified though..but maybe it finally all ermx..paid off?i dunno how to phrase it in a nicer way..just that throughout the year i always asked God whywhywhy i pray so hard and daryl doesn't but why does the guys team seem to excel all the time while the gals team is like..far behind in comparison..[childish i know..but i can't help it though i tried not to think that way!]..and God finally answered me.i thank Thee..but i'm grateful too that in spite of everything,the guys still got 3rd.=)

to all of us!

and so track has come to an end for me..and wad i see lying ahead of me are days of muggin..but also days of dreamin about this fab team i was once a part of.
Thank You Lord =D
All Glory unto Thee!


my dream, my love =)
viva la victoria!!!