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10:09 pm
Monday, July 10, 2006
13.53stoday i prayed,like every other day,Dear Lord,please let me get into the finals.please let me do a 13.6s..and God gave me a 13.53s timing.indeed He is almighty.but it stings more that i didn't get into the finals again.the only comfort is that i'm not 9th like wad mtan originally told me,which made me break down there and then coz it just really sucks to be 9th like i was by 0.04s back in sec4.for a moment it felt like deja vu.but i'm 10th.so tt's scant comfort at least.and i missed by 0.1s too.so not too bad,not tt close.just hurts tt i lost to 2 ppl i dun even know.argh.this was actually one of my best race ever.it was the most perfect start in my entire life.mtan's words really worked-block out all noise but the gun's.still,it ain't how well u start but how u end.and i messed up my ending.for some strange unknown reason,my left ankle which is already kinda strained just totally went numb and hurt terribly during my last 20m.i was so shock while running coz i really felt i still had it in me to give tt extra burst of speed until tt pain stung me.regrets?annoyed.came back and mtan told me to be strong,for the team.yes-for the team.it's always for the team,for ever and ever and ever.disappointmenti'm only human,can i have my emotions too??argh.wadeva it was,i just had to put up a brave front and continue on.i cried though,i just couldn't take it anymore.but i didn't really cry all out.i can feel the tears welling up again..arrrgh.where are you?relay was amusing.our strategy worked,so now we're in lane 3.the lane we really wanted.woots!poor jlow will prob get whacked by mtan coz she had to slow drawn drastically so she won't overtake rj so tt we can be 3rd qualifiers.haha.i dun feel like going to school tmr..but i dun feel like going down to cck yet again..i dun think i can face tt track so soon.it took me so much to muster up courage to go out there again for relays.the escapist in me was all ready to drown off the shores of far off east coast park after 100m.but i do wanna support huajia and jeo!arrrgh.it's always for the team.communistand i've got diarrhoea.fantastic.