i haven't been sleeping very well lately.
it's hard to..when u've got so many things running thru ur mind.it's not like i can help it and say 'MIND!!THOUGHTS!!STOP!!' and then everything just vanishes from your head.it's tough!
still..i just hope everything ends on a good foot. =/

i actually read my econs notes last night.something i should have done like...2 months ago?arrrrgh.but it was too little too late.i think i'm real terrible;i've allowed my brain to degenerate into such a semi-comatose state that i can barely absorb anything more after only a pathetic 15min of notes reading.it's horrible!!
and so i failed my econs test today.
or i most prob will fail.it got to the extent that i just simply gave up even trying to squeeze something outta me empty head onto the paper.it's like,i just decided to be soft on my cramping brain and to the poor teacher who will be marking my pathetic script.i suppose it'll be a breeze for her since all she has to do is put 2 fat crosses and flip the paper.oh wells.doesn't help to sit next to ppl who write like the paper's trying to run away from him [ryan] and behind smarties who are able to let everything flow out without even stopping to think [vernie+yi sha].i was so tired of trying to think abt all things keynesian that i ended up tryin to peer at how long shawn's script was gonna be since he was infront of me too,but the hole in his hair from his fatal haircut distracted me instead.haha.anyway his wasn't tt long either.
arrrrrrgh.
econs

today's the day we handed over the reins of earthwatch to the junior batch.hooooooooray+boohooooooooo!!
a day of mixed emotions i suppose.but at least i've left earthwatch with firm friends like sam and cam.=D
as for the next year's ex-co...wells,i wish them all the best and may they bring earthwatch to greater heights.
earthwatch forever!!!=D
oh and jian feng's the chairman.he can now rest easy and not lose sleep anymore.hahaha.

i feel really stressed writing a human geog essay.it's no thanks to josef tan that i feel this way.and i gotta go meet him for a one-to-one remedial session tmr.omg.just shoot me la.of all ppl.bleahhhhhh.

ooh and congrats to the fab softball gals team for overcoming their dismal start to triumph against the greenies today!!!*thousand hundred cheers*
and will someone please stuff the whistle of tt rj irritant up his dang nostrils?!!!
maybe tt's why they lost.





the guilt strikes me periodically.it's a responsibility i've laid upon myself,yet i feel that at times i just wanna shake free of the reins and run away.but the guilt's eternal,sticking to me like my shadow.
becoming my shadow.
so much so that it weighs upon my heart;there's really so much i would have loved to do.
i just dun dare to..maybe it's the commitment part that i wanna dodge,coz it'll only be expected that u follow up.it's only natural that once it's forged,you have to continue;it ain't no part time thing.but i haven't got much left in my soul for it,i dun even have enough for myself.i really feel not up to the task,but should it even be viewed as a task?
i suppose there's always the chance it'll be great joy,
thing is-do i have the strength and heart to start now?