i feel that inner escapist creeping up on me again.yet i seem to be able to stand up against it this time.
strange.
haven't i always loved to embrace the world of escapism?
...

my body is utterly wrecked.like seriously.my digestive system went to pieces on sunday and everything tt entered my mouth exited my mouth once again through the telling pool of puke.the only thing i barely managed to 'swallow' was ricola sweets.sad.uber irritating and exhuasting.in the end i had nothing left to puke [breakfast,lunch,dinner and even previous day's dinner were out too] that i ended up vomitting my gastric juices.anyway i went to the hospital tt night after surviving a hilariously entertaining Oi! Sleeping Beauty together with my sis who sprained her leg.haha.wad a pair of sisters we are.
but i must truly proclaim the goodness of God coz the medicine did wonders in curing my messed up digestive system and i managed to keep my food down in my stomach the whole of monday!YEAH! THANK YOU LORD!!! =D
ton the whole night with trackers on monday.haha.daryl and i are fated to be bridge partners la.played 5 games and every game he and i partners.and we won 3 outta 5 sets!woots!
oh and sheng wei is so uber funny!!!!haha.i was telling them tt my mum and aunt are twins and tt if my aunt drop by later,they can see and compare.but i didn't know tt my mum went to collect the comforters from my aunt instead of my aunt coming to my house,so when she [my mum] walked in with the comforters,sheng wei was like '*__* WAH! look EXACTLY ALIKE!' omg. *bangs head on wall* seriously man,i almost died laughing!!!does his rank 15th-in-level brains exist?!!hahaha but he's uber funny!!!

sigh...spiritual warfare is tough.been trying real hard to invite the trackers to come for my christmas party which i can finally see everyone putting tonnes of effort into. [working with minghan is really really really entertaining and pure evil glee on his part.ahaha.] but well...they haven't been very responsive.i was soooo supa happieeee when minghan told me tt alan could come.i was like ALAN?!!*__* WOOHOO!haha.really man,i was soooooo happiee!!!but also quite sad coz j.low and daryl had not replied my sms and i was thinking that they wouldn't want to come to the party...but j.low says tt she and mel most prob coming and tt totally lifted my spirits man!i was praying soooo hard!!!almost jumped up and started dancing la!hahaha.now is to get daryl and jenn to come,i've been praying for them for so long...but i dun think i've prayed enough.=( sigh...sometimes i just wished i could stop wishing and just be more prayerful.
argh.

fell in love with this song in indonesia...how apt to how defeated i'm feeling right now...
Lord,please embrace me and give me the strength and assurance i need...

Pelangi Kasih-Nya

Apa yang kau alami kini
Mungkin tak dapat engkau mengerti
Satu hal tanamkan di hati
Indah semua yang Tuhan b’ri

Tuhanmu tak akan memberi
Ular beracun pada yang minta roti
Cobaan yang engkau hadapi
Tak melebihi kekuatanmu

Tangan Tuhan sedang merenda
Suatu karya yang agung mulia
Saatnya kan tiba nanti
Kau lihat pelangi kasihNya

The Rainbow Of His Love

In this life that you and I passed through
There are things that we do not understand
Be not scared, have faith and rest assured
All is beautiful,what God has planned

Our good Father surely will not give
Snakes or stones when we pray to Him for bread
The temptations you and I must face
Never go beyond above our strength

His loving hands is weaving gracefully
Our life tapestry in His plan and glory
Til one day, our image we’ll see
Gleaming in the rainbow of His love


i need listening ears...
can u lend me urs?