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2:57 pm
Monday, August 01, 2005
- faithful-nest -
God has been so good to me- coz He has blessed me with such a wonderful cell group like faithful-nest!
seriously,though they may be small in size,but they are united n independent,everything my peace cell weren't when we first started out.i can always depend on them to decide among themselves when they want to be involved in certain outreach events or go for certain talks or to come for adult service.i'm real proud of them.felt real guilty last nite coz i fell asleep n forgot to tell them to come for today's service.except for olivia who msged me,so when i woke up n it was real late at nite already,i super panick n msged them.thank God rubez was still awake n told me tt they had already planned a week earlier to come today.the other time for good friday,i really didn't expect them to help out,but they were all practically dying to do so,which was a total shocker but made me very pleased n proud of them.n now they are quite eager to go on the mission trip to west kalimantan at year end.omg.they are super power-pack la.i can't keep up!!!but shi hui n i were discussing abt it coz they are really too young for the trip.like we had to hike almost 2 hours up n down mountainous paths to reach the village,something which we felt they would not be able to take [think back to amazing race in march],so we'll have to discuss with them again.but reall,their zest n enthusiasm amazes me.they are really fantastic!
who cares if horrible ppl like esmond think they are retarded n speak in weird languages or if maricar n jac always have a phobia of approaching the gals for fear of being 'attacked' by them [hahaha],it's part of being who they are,of being special [though their weird languages can really puzzle me out great time],but i'm still proud that they are our gals,shi hui's n mine. *smiles with pride*
sigh...but sometimes i think i'm a failure of a cell leader.like i just know i can do so much more for them n be a much better n more caring cell leader.but argh.i'm so forgetful n absent minded n just dunno how to prioritise.all my youth life,track has always had the top-of-the-chart spot.when i went to jc,i tot things would change,but not really.track is still the top spot.i feel real bad when i have to take off on sats to go for comps,but next year i really can't skip comps anymore like i did for the first time in my life this year,coz i really need the experience n i really wanna give it my best shot for track.it's my last year after all...still,i know i have to plan real well,coz i dun wan the gals to feel like i abandoned them like they did for a while this year which made me feel doubly guilty.at least i know i'm not alone,i have shi hui!!ahaha my faith[foo =)] intern.argh...but yeah,i just wish faithful-nest would make things easier for her.she really ain't as fierce as they perceive her to be.dunno why they have yet to see the other side of her.even though they say they dun make things difficult,but it's just this feeling n vibe tt shi hui feels n i know it's affecting her.i dun want her to feel excluded from faithful-nest.it doesn't just comprise of them n me,it's all of us-desiree,eunice,olivia,rubez,susanna,shi hui n i.together we're faithful-nest.i really hope we can grow closer together...
ok.i seriously need to re-think my direction in life.
hmmm...