5:55 pm
Sunday, June 19, 2005
- L.A.P.D -
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANNOUNCEMENT: I'VE FINALLY SUCCESSFULLY DOWNLOADED MY MSN MESSENGER!!!!!!!yes! after months...i'm finally able to chat online once more.not like i missed it much...rather enjoyed the quiet surfing-without-windows-popping-up to inform me who's online.oh well...still,glad to have messenger once more. =Dahaha n zhong xing was the first person to chat with me after i successfully logged on at 1++ am.insane hour.wad an honour he had.anyway tt mad guy is now doing 500 econs mcqs.1000 kowtows to him man! ahaaha...Let's
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Praise, Preach, Persevere, Pledge
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L.A.P.D
that was the theme of the camp.
before i went for the camp,i was rather apprehensive.so many things had come along the way that prevented me from wanting to go for the camp.preparing for terms [amidst the threats of tan yew hwee],training,catching up with frens,etc.i really with all my heart didn't want to go coz i was just so stressed,esp about terms,to the extent that i couldn't sleep til like 3, 4 am in the morning a few nights before the camp.but i remember that 2 nights before the camp,i went for cell group n shared with them about my sleeping prob.that night,i had to leave early coz i had a doc's appointment,but unknowingly to me,my cell group prayed for me n i had the best sleep in a long time that night.i only knew that they had prayed for me the next day when i received jes' sms.also,that morning after when i did my q.t, God spoke to me,though not in a loud way,yet it impacted me greatly,n in an obvious way.
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."
John 14:27
this was really wad i needed,assurance from God.n towards the late part of the chapter,in john 14:31,the last line said-" Come now; let us leave."and that was exactly wad i needed,an answer from God to go for this camp.and i have no regrets,for this camp has truly been a great experience for me. =)
not only did i get to make more friends,i also got to know those i already knew better,like mark and esmond especially.these 2 people i give special mention to coz in all honesty,i never thought much of esmond whom i still distinctively remember as being extremely rude to me just last christmas at mrs wee's bbq.like hello?!!i hardly even knew him well then and he was already insulting me over stefie's phone.but ever since being in the same school and involved in the same camp as him,i realised that he is capable of being civil and faintly nice.ah well,i still can't get over the fact how i seem to hear him all over church yet in school he seems to be different and more subdued.oh well...
mark's another guy whom i got to know better too.haha...this guy has shot up like so much in the past 4 years la!!!he used to be slightly taller than me,now a towering 1.85m.get a neck ache just simply talking to him.known him since i was a puny kid,yet never spoke more than a handful of words to him in the past 17 years of my life.not used to it i guess,since boys n girls didn't inter mingle in kfc then.but anyway,since he,abel,shi hui n i were the only 17 year olds at the camp,we had a long chat till like 5a.m on the last night of camp.actually,shi hui n i first started the conversation coz we wanted to know wad he does with the sec 1 boys during cell.nothing much apparently-soccer n word.oh well,same goes for the other boys cell.anyway,i think mark has a secret vengence against me.he whacked me twice in my face with water bombs in 2 consecutive games.the first happened when i jumped up to burst a bomb before it could whack our cardboard clad 'samurai' whom we were duty-bound to protect,when his bomb came straight to my face.but it was too late to siam.considering he's a colours award recepient for his squash,u can imagine the power n force of his throw.the 2nd was in the next game when i just happened to be standing up after picking a bomb n was delt with an almighty blow to the left side of my face tt left it numb n my eye red n teary so i was taken out of the game.actually i didn't know it was him.i was just sitting on the bench with the camp comm members n moaning abt how unfortunate i am to get whacked twice in my face when mark happened to walk past n immediately started defending himself by saying he didn't see me until it was too late,when i had stood up n he had already thrown the bomb.waaaaaaaaah.that's when i realised he had struck me yet again.grrrrrrrrrr....would have thrown a whole pail of bombs at him man!!!unfortunately i dun have the strength to do so.anyway,he got his 'just desserts' when he received the Most Innocent Face 'Award' during mock court-getting whacked by 4 water bombs. =D *muahahah*ok church camp aside,i had track day camp the day after.it was quite fun la.though i still dunno a lot of ppl's name.i didn't know the name of one guy in my group until like the camp was over.sigh...i actually wished track camp was longer n involved like everyone.oh well,can't be too greedy.
had faithful-nest sleepover on the 2nd day of track camp so i didn't go for it,though i didn't sleepover.but i skipped the next day to go back for track camp.the gals asked me why is it that i always abscond for track n dun come for cell.sigh...tt question really pricked me.i mean,i am after all still a student.n tt comes first.yet my whole holidays i have placed nothing else but church,faithful-nest, n track as top priority and that is still not enough?!!i could have spent those hours studying!something which i want to do very much but haven't got the time for.i feel really frustrated that i have to sacrifice so much taking a cell,n yet they dun seem to understand or appreciate it.if i weren't the cell leader of faithful-nest i could have gone for more competitions,improve myself,gained more competition experience;i could have studied more,hung out with my friends,go home early n have dinner with my family,something i hardly get the chance to do so now.but it's not tt i regret being the cell leader,i have after all taken on the responsibility,n come to love them very much,but it's just very pressurising n stressful for me to juggle church,track n studies n try to do my best in them all.arrrrrrrgh!!!i wanna give nothing short of my best but i can't!i'm a single-minded person,one thing at a time.i can't multi-task!arrgh.i dunno how much longer i can take...
anyway,i'm looking forward to destressing myself tmr coz i'm going orchard with my mum!!!yeah...retail therapy.*bliss*ok it's now 2.55 am n i am off to sleep happily coz i finally got my msn.yay thanks God!