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4:31 pm
Thursday, April 28, 2005
vjc
my comp is finally fixed.but the technician told my mum that it won't last much longer.why can't she get the hint and buy a new comp?!!!argh.
it better not crash or hang while i'm doing my PI,which i'm supposed to be doing now anyway.bah.the colours still dun really work though.
i'm still in love with vjc.hahaha...the love has extended beyond the love for yellow.but i'm rather frustrated now.i wanna TRAIN!!!like i haven't felt tt way for such a long time,definitely not while i was in ac.but i CAN'T train coz i have make up lessons EVERYDAY!!!how sian is tt?!!everyone keeps telling me to pon,but well,dun wanna get into trouble so soon.dun wan teachers to use sports appeal against me.anyway,i'm really frustrated.i'm so darn slow now.my speed ain't there,my jumps ain't far either.i'm really utterly disappointed with myself.i mean,it's my last 2 years in track and i really do wanna give it my best shot,be it jumps or track.i dun wan to fritter my time away.
the other day after trng i was nearly in tears.tt day i finally trained with helen and j.low.it was just drills trng.but oh how my drills suck to the core now.i can't even do simple ones i could do with skill and ease in the past.throughout i just kept thinking of how mr tay used to praise me and used me as an example to do certain drills,yet now,i suck to the core.my sense of coordination is gone.i can't even stride properly now.during jumps trng,i felt so slow while striding.like i wanna go faster,yet something is holding me back from doing so,when i know tt i can definitely run faster.the 'feeling' just wasn't there.i was just so down.and then i thought back to how if i were still in ac,i would be trng for my pet event,my love-100m.yet now i'm relegated to something i used to loathe but now like-jumps.at least in ac,ma jiaolian was always around to guide us.here,mr tang is always seemingly everywhere but where i was at tt moment.i know it's a really big challenge for him to handle both sprints and jumps,but so does ma jiaolian!and well,i feel more comfortable around her than with him.sigh...mr tang is nice,but i think he is too nice.like he's a coach!he's supposed to be firmer.but to each his own.sigh...i really wanna train.
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oh yes,and something really incredible happened to me-i'm now gonna be a part of the MADAMA BUTTERFLY production at esplanade which is directed by Ivan heng!!!!!!!*SCREAMS*hahaha...i'll be doing puppetry.yay!i've been for 2 rehearsals already,of which the first was spent making the puppets and the 2nd spent on touching up.though we did start a lil bit of how to enter the stage.oh man,i totally can't believe it.i'm finally involved in theatre!like dream come true?!!i dun even mind if i'm just a part of the backstage clean-up crew,at least i got to be a part.-theatre- i like the sound of it.=)
really really looking forward to tmr's rehearsal.of coz the downside is tt the rehearsals can stretch till like 11.30pm at night at the Esplanade.oh well,at least i can train up my running by sprinting to catch the last train.haha...but oh how i love it!shall blog more abt it next time.