i'm surprised this is still here.
i would have thought blogger would have shut this down by now
with all the inactivity.


still..


it occurred to me once again how transient life is.

weddings and funerals.
joyful and sorrowful events; undeniably a mix bag of extreme emotions at either.


perhaps i whine a little, inwardly, when i receive a wedding invite from a peer.
wondering inevitably if i will ever have the chance to be in their position.
[perhaps we may just elope? right.]
wondering also, of course, how much money should i put in the hongbao.

and when i attend, i always feel my heart swell, just a little,
with the warmth at all the tenderness and love.
it magnifies the loneliness i feel.
but i'm surrounded by so much love and joy, it's hard to feel sad at such events.
it would be utterly selfish.


still..


reading about funerals,
really left me wondering..

there will come a day when i no longer receive a "summon"
there will come a day when my friends and cherished relatives may appear in a certain section of the newspaper
and i know the same question would resonate in my thoughts -
when will it be my turn?


life is short and greatly to be celebrated.
and celebrate i will.